Math.... no

As I am typing this I am sitting in math class, supposedly doing a review for our final.

Well I will tell you guys, I am not doing the final review. No. Nope. Nopity nope no. Hell to the no. Not happening.

Today is not a day for math. It is not going to happen. Just no.

I mean really? I have to get up at 6 in the morning every single day and make it all the way to school. And they expect me to do math? With every other class having finals on the same day I end up having to stay up until three in the fucking morning just to make sure that my grades don't drop. And then they expect me to sit here and do a big ass math packet full of algebra and matrices at seven in the morning.

No thank you.

It's not that I'm bad at math, I mean I'm not good at it either. But in the middle of the day I think I would be much more willing to do math then I am first thing in the morning. I'm not awake yet! My mind still thinks I am happily in bed sleeping away. But in reality I am here. Sitting in a class with a million people I greatly dislike. Forced to do problem that solve no real predicament and just serve the purpose of making my brain hurt.

This post had no real purpose, good bye.

Quick Update

Just thought I would tell everybody. After my last post I know you are all dying to know the results.

Wait..... you're not?

You mean you don't care.......

WELL SCREW YOU!

I MADE WIND ENSEMBLE!!! I AM SUPERIOR!

The Suspense is Killing Me

Literally. I have never been more anxious about anything in my life.

Last Friday I auditioned for wind ensemble. The highest level band in my school. The band that goes to New York next year to compete in a national competition. The band with all the talented kids in it.

I must be a part of it.

So on Friday I played the piece I had been practicing none stop for the past two weeks for my band director. I played Bach's second Sonata in Eb. I never want to hear that song again for as long as I live. I have come to the conclusion that Bach is totally evil. I mean, his middle name is Sebastian! How can he not be a demon!!!

Yep..... That's a demon.

Anyway..... back to band. So I played my piece and I actually did pretty well. I was proud of myself. Even though I was super nervous I think I played it better than I ever practiced it. I got every single rhythm and run. The only thing I did wrong was miss a few accidentals. That's pretty damn good for me. Plus I have spent the entire year working myself to death by doing EVERYTHING I POSSIBLY COULD!!!! Seriously, you name it I did it. Marching Band, Pit Orchestra, Football Pep Band, Basketball Pep Band. I have 505 letter points!!! The requirement for a letter is only 450! I have dedicated my entire life to music!!! 

So when Mr. Band Director asked why he should put me in Wind Ensemble I pretty much vomited reasons why he owns my soul.

Yes. I have every confidence that I will make it. At least I did.

Then sight reading happened. 

Basically Mr. Band Director found the most impossible, evil, malicious, soul devouring, dream smashing piece of music he could find. 

So it went like this:

"Amanda, please play up to measure 42 for me." 

"Yes Lord Taylor!" *Salute and looks a piece*

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Soul is instantly crushed.

Dying Goose Noises Commence. 

Amanda Sad.

So yeah...... I spend all weekend freaking out about this. And next period I will be able to look at the list to see if I made it. If I didn't make it my life is over....... tell my family I love them. Audrey can have my guitar and I leave my manga collection to Lyndsey. Burry me with my clarinet. The instrument that ruined my life. 

Goodbye -.-

Anime Is For Children?

A few weeks ago a placed a poll on my blog. If you look to the right you can see said post.

Here's a picture of how the poll currently stands.

As you can see, most of my viewers like anime.

But there is this one person.

That 9%

This is not ok.

I would first like to say that the only reason I put that option on this poll is so I could make this post. 

No anime is not for kids. 

Why you ask?

Don't tell me anime is for children.

Grades......I Hate Them

Grades. Yes, Grades.

Dictionary Definition: The process of applying standardized measurements of varying levels of achievement in a course.

Student Definition: The most stressful thing to ever be invented ever in the history of the world where you are put up against every other kid in your grade and ranked. If your grades are not sufficient your teachers, parents, and peers are automatically given the right to ridicule you until your life just completely revolves around grades and there is nothing else in the entire world that can distract you from the fact that you are a failure. 

Grades Suck.

Now, many people may think that all this technology that students of the 21st century have access too just gives us distractions from our work. When in reality it just makes everything a million times more stressful.

Back like 30 years ago you had a text book, you read the book, and you answered the questions according to what the book said. Nowadays you have to look everything up on the internet. You have to make sure that the site you look at is legitimate, which is impossible considering 99.9% of the internet is a bunch of ass holes who want to mess with people, and if you use Wikipedia your teachers are going to make you burn in hell.

Another example is that because of all this technology we have nowadays, it is absolutely impossible to escape from school. 30 years go you go to school, you spend the day at school with teachers, and then you come home and you don't have to deal with teachers till the next day. On the weekends you can completely forget everything, over christmas break school never crosses your mind. But now we have computers! All the assignments are online! You can never escape! You can't be too lazy to write that history report like back in the good old days. If you don't write your God Damn report you will be attacked by vicious streams of emails from your teachers who are going to be all like WHERE THE HELL IS THAT GOD DAMN HISTORY REPORT!?!?!?

Yeah.... not fun.

Grades are pretty much just a way to make kids who already have low self-esteems feel worse about themselves because they aren't as smart as the rest.

And then my school does things like giving out donuts to honor roll students! Seriously! I mean just think about that, you are already feeling awful about your grades and your parents are giving you grief and then you go to lunch and your friends all walk up with their donuts and they are like "Go get yours!" And you have to admit that you didn't make honor roll. How is that going to help students!

Plus, if your grades aren't good enough you can't join in clubs and travel with teams. That is not ok! If you're told you aren't allowed to go to a team event out of state you aren't going to want to stay home and study! You will just want to sit there and feel sorry for yourself!

Yeah....... If you couldn't tell I'm pretty frustrated with my grades right now. Thank you for reading my rant. :P