Grades......I Hate Them

Grades. Yes, Grades.

Dictionary Definition: The process of applying standardized measurements of varying levels of achievement in a course.

Student Definition: The most stressful thing to ever be invented ever in the history of the world where you are put up against every other kid in your grade and ranked. If your grades are not sufficient your teachers, parents, and peers are automatically given the right to ridicule you until your life just completely revolves around grades and there is nothing else in the entire world that can distract you from the fact that you are a failure. 

Grades Suck.

Now, many people may think that all this technology that students of the 21st century have access too just gives us distractions from our work. When in reality it just makes everything a million times more stressful.

Back like 30 years ago you had a text book, you read the book, and you answered the questions according to what the book said. Nowadays you have to look everything up on the internet. You have to make sure that the site you look at is legitimate, which is impossible considering 99.9% of the internet is a bunch of ass holes who want to mess with people, and if you use Wikipedia your teachers are going to make you burn in hell.

Another example is that because of all this technology we have nowadays, it is absolutely impossible to escape from school. 30 years go you go to school, you spend the day at school with teachers, and then you come home and you don't have to deal with teachers till the next day. On the weekends you can completely forget everything, over christmas break school never crosses your mind. But now we have computers! All the assignments are online! You can never escape! You can't be too lazy to write that history report like back in the good old days. If you don't write your God Damn report you will be attacked by vicious streams of emails from your teachers who are going to be all like WHERE THE HELL IS THAT GOD DAMN HISTORY REPORT!?!?!?

Yeah.... not fun.

Grades are pretty much just a way to make kids who already have low self-esteems feel worse about themselves because they aren't as smart as the rest.

And then my school does things like giving out donuts to honor roll students! Seriously! I mean just think about that, you are already feeling awful about your grades and your parents are giving you grief and then you go to lunch and your friends all walk up with their donuts and they are like "Go get yours!" And you have to admit that you didn't make honor roll. How is that going to help students!

Plus, if your grades aren't good enough you can't join in clubs and travel with teams. That is not ok! If you're told you aren't allowed to go to a team event out of state you aren't going to want to stay home and study! You will just want to sit there and feel sorry for yourself!

Yeah....... If you couldn't tell I'm pretty frustrated with my grades right now. Thank you for reading my rant. :P

Maybe If I Ignore It, It Won't Happen

I feel like my life just revolves around a series of things that I don't want to happen. I have a bad habit of just ignoring these things, thinking that if I'm not aware of them neither is the rest of the world. I keep up this way of thinking until the thing I don't want to happen gets so close that I finally have the epiphany that this thing is actually going to happen.
Examples?

AP Testing
Windensemble Auditions
Spanish Project
The Extinction of Panda Bears

These are just a few of the things that I am dreading with so many feels that I have just stopped giving any feels about them.

Let's discuss my non-feels, shall we?

First up is the upcoming test for my AP geography class. You know, just the most important test I have ever taken in my entire meaningless life as a student. Just the test that is going to make the entire year of horrendous studying in the hardest class ever that only the most advanced students can get A's in. And by advanced students I mean the ones that have had there brains experimented on by aliens. The test that is going to stop me from having to retake this class when I begin my boring life as a college student at the University of Utah were I will waste away my parents money by partying and not doing a bit of studying.

So what have I done to prepare myself for the biggest test of the millennium?

Nothing.

In fact I have only gotten through this class this year because I cram the night before each test and I use my friend, Audrey, as a study tool in the way that I have her tell me everything of importance that she read instead of actually reading the book on my own.

The test is May 13th, which gives me exactly 72 days to get my shit together and learn all the things.

I know what you're thinking. 72 days is a TON of time. I could breed wolves and have a puppy in that amount of time. But I guarantee that we will get to the night before the test and it will be the first time I have actually opened the book. 

Moving on.

Wind Ensemble auditions are coming up in the next two weeks. Wind Ensemble is the highest level in the band program that you can get to. 

Meaning that it is audition only to get in. This is stressing me out to the point where my mind had gone into self defense mode, and has pushed this fact to the deepest darkest corner of my mind where there is no way it can possible resurface, in order to make it so my mind doesn't explode from all the stress. 

Basically I'm at the point where my brain is completely sure that I will get my schedule for next year and I will have just magically gotten into Wind Ensemble. 

Next is my Spanish Project. 

It is excential that I do well on this project. Why?

This is why....

Look at all the A's!

Wait... what's this...... Future Exam?

 .........Grade?

-.-

This Future exam has changed my grade from a beautiful A down to a B. This is not expectable. Mainly because AP Geography is the only class that I can allow myself to get below a A- in because if I do worse than that I will be kicked out of National Junior Honor Society and then Colleges will see this fact and I won't get into college and I will end up working as a grocery store bagger and in about two years my job will be completely taken over by a robot and I will end up living on the streets.  

So I have to do well on this project. But my partner and I have no idea what to do so we are totally procrastinating. 

And what can I do about Panda Bears????? It's not my fault! It's the Chinese! I blame you, FIX IT!!!!!!

Disapointment

A few months ago I made a post called BANDS RELEASED TODAY. On this post I described my excitement for the upcoming Vans Warped Tour. This post included a list of bands that I would like to see on the tour.

The list consisted of the following:

A Day to Remember

Escape the Fate

Sleeping With Sirens

Bring Me The Horizon

We Came as Romans

Pierce the Veil 

Asking Alexandria

Bullet for My Valentine

Capture the Crown

Memphis May Fire

Out of the bands listed above five of them went to Warped last year. You know how many of them are going this year. I'll give you one guess. If you are having trouble guessing just look at the title of the post.
Did that help.
I bet you guessed it.

NONE OF THEM
NOT A SINGLE ONE
ZERO
GOOSE EGG
NADA
RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR


.......I just thought I would express my disappointment with you guys. I'm gonna go cry now. Bye.

Drawing.... Bleh!

If you read my blog regularly you will know that occasionally I illustrate my blog with very poorly drawn pictures that I make on this wonderfully frustrating site.

I hate it.

I can't draw for shit. I am very artistic, don't get me wrong. But I am artistic in a musical way. Not a drawy, painty, visual, way. The way people can visualize things in their head and reproduce them perfectly on paper in the exact way the imagine it fascinates me. I want to be good at drawing. I practice drawing anime every now and then but they usually don't come out very well.

So why did I decide to start illustrating my posts? Well, basically I have friends who are super duper talented when it comes to drawing and they illustrate their blog posts. Drawings make you posts more interesting and even when you have a really long post breaking it up with drawings makes the reader want to pay attention instead of them feeling intimidated by the huge amount of text. Plus their drawings make their blogs extremely funny and they have a shit ton of page views.

My expectations for blog illustrations. 

Reality

My thinking process was this.
I want pageviews! I want my blog to be popular! How can I do this? I know! I can copy my friends in a inauspicious endeavor to be artistic!
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....... Wonderful idea, wasn't it?

Not only are my drawings awful, they also take FOREVER to make and are tremendously difficult to do on a computer. I don't understand how anybody can do such good drawings on a computer! How is this possible? I just don't know. I am obviously not coordinated enough for this.
I hope you guys appreciate the work I put into these drawings!

New Musical Obsession

If you read my blog, know me in person, or know just one thing about me you will know that I am a giant band nerd. I play clarinet, saxophone, and flute. I also own a keyboard and sometimes I like to sit in front of it and pretend that I'm talented. But now I have added yet another instrument to the rotation!

Wait for it......
Wait for it.....

I play guitar now :3

BTWs Best guitar drawing ever :P

Yep, I've been playing guitar for about a month now. It is surprisingly easy to learn and I am very proud of myself. Considering that for the fist nine months of playing saxophone I sounded like a mix between a wood pecker and a cat that was being stabbed repeatable and that I still can't play two notes on the flute without having to take a breath so that I end up looking like I'm having an asthma attack, I think my progress on the guitar is sensational.

So about two months ago I decided that my dads guitar needed to make it's way out of the storage room. So I brought it into my room to join the family of instruments. For about the first month it just kinda sat in my room and I would stare at it imagining how cool it would be to be able to play it. 

It wasn't till a few weeks ago that I actually got it out of the case and broke out youtube to learn to play If I'm James Dean You're Audrey Hepburn by Sleeping With Sirens. That song was incredibly easy. And I've been driving my family crazy with it for the last month.

The reason I didn't learn anything else is because, and if you play guitar you will totally understand this, you need a capo to play every single cool song out there. I guess singers just can't sing in the right key to save their lives so they have to make the guitar players use capos in order to make it so they don't sound like dying cats.

But last week it arrived! I finally have a capo!!!!! So now I have been playing guitar non stop. Yesterday I literally got home, picked up the guitar, and played for the next two and a half hours. My dad can in to take me to karate at six and I was like "What???? Where did all the time go?!?!" I think I just transported myself to magical guitar land were everything but music completely vanishes.

But those two hours were well spent because now I can play If It Means A Lot To You by A Day to Remember like a total boss.

And the night before that my dad came into my room and told me that the guitar was officially mine. YAY!!

Yep, and now I have five instruments. One day when I become ultimate ruler of the universe I think it will be a law for every single one of my subjects to have to learn to play an instrument.
It will be a good world.