Friday, November 15, 2013

SWS Happiness

I told you all yesterday that I was going to attend the Sleeping with Sirens Feel This Tour. Well I did and it was the most Amazing Wonderful Happiest Moment EVER. The lineup was Our Last Night, Issues, Breath Carolina, and then after three hours of waiting through intense crowds were I literally had no room to breath Sleeping with Sirens Finally came on.

So before I go into the details of how Kellin Quinn and I were breathing the same air, I need to explain my extreme spy skills that became necessary to get to said concert.

It's no secret that music is my entire life. So yesterday was pit orchestra practice, like every day. Well it was time to leave and I had to go early or there was no way we would make it on time. So I had to get out without my band director and Katie de Music Lord of All (as her contact is in my phone) killing me. Thankfully Bryan (who is my eternal rival, and I don't even think he knows it) was able to fill in for me and play my book so hopefully I'm fine.

So I had to go out the back way because if I went out of the pit the normal way I would have to make my way through the entire rhythm section and the five thousand violins. So I went up the back way, and discovered that to get out I would have to cross the stage where people were performing. So what did I do instead?

I crossed through the wood shop room and went outside, around the building, back in, and snuck into the band room.

I felt incredibly ninja.

So then my dad picked Audrey, Abi, and I up from school and we got Subway before heading down to Saltair for the best night ever.

Our Last Night was first up, and I had never listened to them before and truthfully I wasn't expecting much.  I was mistaken.

These guys were sick. They started the concert and got the crowd so worked up. Issues was a major letdown after them. 

So I had actually heard of Issues in the past, but I knew I didn't really like them. They were worse live then I thought they would be. I did not enjoy it..... They had a bunch of dub step mixes in with there songs playing of a computer. That is not ok. I tolerate dub step at raves and nothing else. You think with six guys they would be able to put on some live music, not have to use a computer.

Now Breathe Carolina, that was something to be remembered. I don't even listen to Breathe Carolina but I had an amazing time. I think I would have enjoyed it way more if I didn't feel more squished then a those fish at the end of Finding Nemo caught in the net. There was no room to breath at this point. There was a moment where the crowd was jumping up and down but I wasn't. Even though I wasn't jumping I was raised with the rest of them. That was how crowded it was, but the worst was that we were about four feet from the gate. Four feet from the stage. Four feet from where Kellin would be standing. We were right there, the problem was that since Sleeping With Sirens was next everybody was trying to get as close as possible and there was no room to move. 

I am ashamed to say that I couldn't take it. I almost made it, I really did. Breathe Carolina's set ended and I stuck it out in the crowd of duchebags and the super bitchy kid in front of me as a complete asshole trying to shake me away from him. The this kid was like half my size and he was all like "Fuck of Bitches" And I'm over here like "If there was a place to more I would ya cunt!"

But the last straw was when the fat sweaty guy right next to me took off his shirt...... I just couldn't do it.

I made us go to the back with all the sane people, and honestly I enjoyed SWS much more then I would have up in that hell hole.

The set list for Sleeping with Sirens was as followed....

Here We Go
Congratulations (Matty Mullins did not attend :P)
Free Now
If I'm James Dean Your Audrey Hepburn
The Best There Ever Was
A Trophy Father's Trophy Son
These Things I've Done 
Scene Five: With Ears to See and Eyes to Hear
Do It Now Remember It Later
If You Can't Hang

Needless to say it was amazing. Worlds can not describe the perfectness. But the best was Kellin's pep talks and the way he introduced the songs. You watch all the videos and interviews on Youtube and think "wow, he's so cute and funny and motivating" Well he is actually like that in real life. Nothing can compare to that night.

Except for the fact that now I feel like shit cuz I got four hours of sleep and I had to get up at six for school and even though I showered when I got home and have asked all my friends if I smell and they have said no the stink of weed is still in my nose and its making me so nauseous.  

It's ok, it was worth it.

Good bye for now my little Panda Bears! \(*.*)/

Thursday, November 14, 2013

so.... much... joy

Tonight is the night I have been looking forward to for a very long time. I think every girl looks forward to this night.

No, I'm not getting married.
No, I'm not loosing my virginity.

Yes, I'm going to a Sleeping With Sirens Concert.

I have been looking forward to this since the day I got the ticket, three months ago, and I could hold it in my hands and say this to myself "This is real........ holy shit!" 
I don't think you guys understand. You see, I never thought that I would actually get to go to this, this is because six months ago I had a ticket to go to Warped Tour. You know, only the most amazing thing in the entire world were all my favorite bands that make up everything good in the world all come together in one place to sing to me.
I literally had a ticket. I really had one.

And a week before the concert I was not allowed to go. 
Why was I not allowed to attend what was going to be the happiest day of my life?
I painted my nails..... black.
that was the reaction from my parents.
So I was not allowed to go to Warped tour.

And the same thing was close to happening this time. 
You see, my dad hasn't talked to me in four days, and he was the one that was supposed to drive me and my friend Audrey to the concert. He hasn't talked to me because I am not doing very well in my Geography class.

So when my dad asked me why I have a C- in this class I responded with.

I was tired ok...... I had just gotten home from Pit Orchestra and I had to leave home again in like five minutes to get ready for Karate. I was tired...... I'm a very busy child.

I don't really blame my dad for thinking I'm a terrible child.... I wouldn't want to talk to me either. 

But my mother came to my rescue. I love my mother. 
She convinced my dad that I should still be able to go to the concert because people were depending on me for a ride. And then when Audrey's mom called to confirm that we were driving and tell my mom that she wasn't sure that Audrey should go because she had art stuffs to do and she was worried that illegal stuffs would go down my mother was all like......
"It's gonna be totally safe, my husband is going to be waiting right outside the concert hall and the people selling alcohol always check ID and Amanda is a good child who would never do drugs or try to drink."
I'll say it again.... I love my mother. 

So this will be the one of the best night ever...... it will rival the amazingness of the Anime Banzai rave. That is how amazing it will be.

Good bye for now my little Panda Bears! \(*.*)/

Stay Strong

I came to school today with a serious question. I was thinking hard about my friends and what is happening in their lives. I'm not sure what to believe anymore. I have a specific friends, and for a few weeks my friend has been posting things online. Self harming pictures, suicide stories, all sorts of scary stuff. But on Wednesday she didn't come to school.

I actually have a few friends that self harm and I wish they wouldn't. I came to school this morning to find one friend freaking out because she had broken her promise to not self harm anymore. But this specific friend seemed to be in worse shape then the others.  So I was worried, but I also thought that she was making it up. I thought she just wanted attention.
But Tuesday night she posted even worse things online. They weren't things that happened to other people, they were things that she had done. She said that she had tried to commit suicide, and she was in the hospital all of Wednesday and that was why she wasn't at school. I found this out from another friend.

In fact I had found all of this stuff out from my other friend, and at this point I was sick of finding stuff out from any source besides for the friend this was happening to. So I talked to her the very next day, and she told me that on Monday she had tried to commit suicide. If there is a god out there I thank him for not taking her from us. For letting her fail in this attempt to end her life.
All I can say is why?  I just want to tell her that things will get bette, no matter what happens. When you have gotten as low as she has, the only place to go is up.
So stop trying to hurt yourself, stop trying to end your life. You are beautiful, you are wonderful in every way, shape, and form. You are perfect and don't let anybody, especially yourself tell you different. To all my friends that self harm, don't hurt yourself. All of you are perfect. Do not think any different.
To all of my friends -
I love you all, stay perfect and stay strong.

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Da Music dat isn't shit!

So after my last post I wanted to share with you guys as of the bands I love!
Well this isn't all of them.... just most of them :)

A Day to Remember

All Time Low

Asking Alexandria

Black Veil Brides 

Bless the Fall

Breaking Benjamin 

Bullet for my Valentine

Escape the Fate 


Linkin Park

My Chemical Romance

Panic! At the Disco

Pierce The Veil

Rise Against


Sleeping With Sirens

The Pretty Reckless

Upon This Dawning

30 Seconds to Mars

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

What passes as Music these days.......

Many of you are probably fans of that music that plays on the radio. The music that glorifies alcohol, drugs, and sex.

What is wrong with us?

What have these songs that glorify such awful things so popular today? These are the songs that the ten year olds in the back seats are singing along to! These kids look up to rappers that just talk about how they want to bang ten bitches at once! Really, really guys? What the hell? You can't even get me started on people like Miley Cyrus, who had millions of fans and children looked up to her as a role model. But the next thing you know she is swinging around butt naked with nothing but some boots on some giant wrecking ball!?
I don't think I'll be alone when I say that I am disgusted by what is excepted as Popular Culture.
Sure she spouts tons of bullshit about how her boyfriend hurt her and she is naked to show how she was hurt. But in reality she is loosing the fan base of children that made her so popular.

So I've realized that so far I haven't talked about the kind of music I like. My genre of music is metal core. I listen to bands like A Day to Remember, Escape the Fate, Memphis May Fire, Sleeping with Sirens, Asking Alexandria and Most of all Black Veil Brides. I understand that this genre is not for everybody, but I saw something online that inspired me to make this post. It was just an image I found on Google but when I saw if I realized how true it was.

Here's the picture.

Now how true is this? The bands I listen to are often criticized as being emo and satanic. But these are all real lyrics from the bands music and I find these songs much more raw and real then any of the stuff on the radio. 

Songs like Roger Rabbit by Sleeping with Sirens go much deeper in meaning then so many of the stuff that passes as art these days. These are bands that write there own songs from their own experiences with life, and no matter how difficult their life as been it helps people with equally difficult lives get through it. 

So many people hear the name Black Veil Brides and think of a bunch of freaks wearing a ton of makeup trying to be like Kiss. But this band is real, they write their own lyrics and take them right out of their hearts.
Isn't that what music is? It's a form of expression and I think that anybody who has the guts to get out their and make their own songs is incredibly brave. Those rappers that have their songs written for them are nothing to me. I can't respect them as an artist. 
So if I'm looking at it from that point of view I have a bit of respect for Miley Cyrus, I just think she is going about it the wrong way.